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So this week I was looking at the prompts and there were a couple of prompts I could use… and a couple that made me realize that I am one of the few, lone daddy-bloggers among MANY mommy-bloggers. Anyway, I chose to post on the topic A LIE YOU TOLD because I did tell a lie somewhat recently and it’s been both bothering and biting me in the bum since,

I mean the lie was not a bad one, it was more a lie that just came out and instead of correcting the deception I went with it.

And I feel crummy about it.

You see, I am in Nursing school. The school I was attending was a really bad one, but I did not find this out until only 6 months left of the program. I know I talked about it once in a previous post but what happened was, with only 4 days left until my final the school decided some work I was doing was not “good enough” and kicked me out of the program. What is meant by this is that, by their own words, they told me that my work “wasn’t wrong” but they expected better from me. What? Well if I am a student and the work is not wrong, I am sure there is always room for improvement but if it’s not wrong then it should be correct – especially since I had a 79 average in the class so I obviously knew the material.

Well, enough of my rant about that, so back to the lie. With a 79 average I knew I was going to pass and my fellow coworkers knew it as well so they would always ask me about it. After I was kicked out I told my coworker friends what happened. But the coworkers I wasn’t as close with, for some reason a lie would just come out.

One person I told them that the school kept making me takes some of my older classes over so I wasn’t done. And, technically this was not a lie. They did make me take some of my older classes over and I wasn’t done yet but that wasn’t why I wasn’t done at that time. Another person I told I just needed to take the national exam but wanted to make sure I would pass it.

I feel bad about not being honest as I feel the truth ALWAYS comes out, but I was very embarrassed that I was kicked out of a program I worked so hard to get in and was kicked out of with only 4 days left.

I am in a new school now and I know I will graduate and be a REALLY great nurse, but it has taken me over 6 months to try and regain my confidence back.

Have you ever lied about something you were embarrassed about to someone?


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This week’s writer’s workshop was a bit easier.

I received my list in my email and decided that I could easily write about my in-laws and they, uh, unique way of life, but I didn’t want to become disowned by them as I have no idea if they read this or not.

The WHERE I’M FROM didn’t interest me because I am not interested in doing a mad-lib for a post.

My Favorite family recipe? Well, I don’t cook and since my mom has passed, there isn’t any way for me to know the recipes.

And the Top Ten Fall Fashions, well, that makes me VERY away that I am the only male in this workshop. But I don’t mind because I love it!

So this is what happened to me.

I was in nursing school… until recently. I will go back and finish but this is what happened to me, from my perspective.

I worked hard and was doing well in my class. All I had to do was take my final and I was going to be a graduate nurse! I was so excited and I studied my dupa off. I even took 3 days off from work so I could study and pass!

With only 7 days until my final… they burst my bubble! They informed me that some paperwork in my clinical was not “good enough” and needed to be redone! It wasn’t wrong, just wasn’t as good as they expected. So I redid the paperwork!

With only 6 days until my final, I worked on this paperwork, did the best I could. I emailed the teachers to receive some help which they did not return the email or call me at the numbers I provided. So, although they offered me help, and told me to contact them and they would assist me with all this, none was provided. I should have known because Farmingdale College is known to take your money and then not teach. They just tell you to look it up in the book! If I found it in the book I wouldn’t be asking you!

Anyway, two days later I handed in my papers and told them of the predicament and the issues I faced getting the information and figured that was that (especially when a couple of months earlier she told me since I was good on everything she would not fail me on paperwork)

Well, 2 days later they asked for me to meet them the following day about the paperwork and my life just seemed to unravel, the last 4 years anyway.

They advised me that the work wasn’t “wrong” but it was not what they expected of me. That I did all patient care excellent and top notch, that I knew what I was doing and why it was being done and had great relations with my patients. That I performed all patient care safely and gave meds out correctly and appropriately and knew what they were for, that my nurses notes were excellent and directed blah blah blah, but I had trouble putting that information down on paper. (What? But my written nurse’s notes were excellent? Isn’t that a contradiction?) They also told me I should rethink my choice in nursing and that they didn’t feel “comfortable” passing me because of this basically fake paperwork that is not even used in real-life nursing.

So with only 4 days until I graduated, they failed me on my clinical paper, even though there were 5 papers due & 15 clinical days of patient care that I exceeded at. So basically, 2 papers, not even the full papers, only 1 part out of 3 on 2 papers failed me.

I appealed the decision, but going into the meeting I knew by they abrasiveness that I was walking into a close-minded lion’s den. I talked to any professor I could about it, but basically they said “Tough Nuggy” and then my nursing school career at that school ended… with only 1 class to take for me to be a Nurse.

I was so close to graduating and it didn’t happen. All the plans my wife and I had for when I graduated are now on hold. Now I am embarrassed because all my friends and co-workers were pulling for me to finish. They ask me when I will graduate and I have no idea what to tell them. I am ashamed about this even though I know I would have passed if they allowed me to take my final.

I know it will happen. I know that this failure was a failure on the teaching, or lack thereof, of my professors at Farmingdale State College. I know I will finish and be proud and be a GREAT nurse and help people like I want to. I just have to find out how I will do it!

Never give up on your dreams. Sometimes there will be obstacles to overcome, it won’t be that you failed but how you overcame the obstacle that teaches you more.

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This prompt was not too hard to choose. I mean I could write about any of them, but this one caught my mind the most. My entry my not COMPLETELY be as expected but this is my blog so nanny nanny poo poo!

A time someone was proud of me would have been my mother… the day I decided to go to school to become a nurse. The reason I say “go to school to become a nurse” and not Nursing School is because, well, being a dude the former sounds cooler as outlined in the Bro Code!

I originally started blogging in 2006 on my myspace account. I blogged every day for 6 months and then stopped. It helped me deal with stuff I was going through with my mother passing and “things I had on my mind” which for a guy translates to feelings I hadn’t dealt with yet.

Blogging helped me express things I was feeling and be able to assist my dad.

When my mother passed I took some time and then I signed up for some classes I needed so I could apply for the Nursing curriculum at a local college.

I will graduate in May and I am quite certain my mother is looking down on me smiling. I did fail a class and had to wait a year to repeat it. In that year I did a lot fo thinking realized that, although I was down and felt I had disappointed her, this was another thing of something which needed to happen and there was a silver lining which I was missing.

The year 2011 is going to be a HUGE year for me. In May I will be graduating college and be a Graduate Nurse. In June/July my wife will give birth to our first child (which we have decided to NOT know the sex of because he/she is what they are and we will love them unconditionally). And I know this because I know my mother was not disappointed in my failure, she was proud of me because I brushed myself off, gave myself 50 lashes and then jumped right back on that horse.

I WILL BE an RN sometime around August! I will ALSO be a first time father sometime in July! And I did it to make my wife happy and proud of me. I did it to make my mother proud of me and I know she is somewhere telling her angelic friends about her youngest son… who just graduated school and became a nurse AND has the CUTEST kid EVER!! I mean don’t we ALL have the cutest kid ever!

So my time of when someone was proud of me will be May of 2011 when all my stress ended and I graduated. When I finally received my college diploma. When I became one LARGE step closer to becoming what I realized I wanted to do that day in the hospital room when I told my mother goodbye! When I finally become a father for the first time… at 40!!! (I guess it’s a good thing my wife is only 30!)

The things we do all our life is usually to make our loved ones happy and proud. They are happy and proud because they are there with us in helping with our dreams. They support us when we realize our dreams or make our dreams become a reality. We sometimes don’t even realize it, but we also try to make our missing parts of our family proud of us because somewhere we feel they are watching us and we never want to let them down.

Thank you for listen to my ramble/rant!

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The first week is done and over with and I feel a little behind as well as a little better prepared! I remember last year when I was not ready and it showed on the first test. I busted my butt everyday after that and still it never showed. But here I am again this year. Finishing the last year of Nursing and I KNOW I am ready but do not feel fully “prepared”.

My lecture Professor is AWESOME! I wish I had her last year! I am fairly certain I would have passed and be an RN right now! My lecture professor is down to earth and, although she skips around a bit, seems like she is approachable should I need to ask her for help or ask a question. My last Professors tried to make us feel that way, but just did not possess that trait in her personality. It’s not her fault, it’s just the way she is. My new professor… VERY approachable and doesn’t make anyone feel like crap if they do not know the answer.

Second, my clinical professor is awesome as well. She also seems down to earth and makes you feel like you can ask her anything, even if its as dumb as “what is ASA?” and she would not bat an eye to answer the question. THAT is what ALL the professors should be like. To me, being a teacher is to teach someone something they do not know, not bully them or ridicule them when they ask a question. She is direct, but polite and accommodating… something that MOST of the professors lack who teach the NUR214 class.

For anyone who is curious, in Nursing school, most classes are Lecture and Lab. Lecture is regular classroom teachings and Lab is in the hospital doing rounds with patients. My School, however, makes learning VERY frustrating and annoying. In lecture, they all show powerpoint presentations to follow but most of the professors just read the powerpoint and that’s it. I mean, that is NOT teaching. I can read the presentation on my own… give me something more!!

Anyway, I am a little behind in the reading. I was trying to stay on top of it, but then the professor skipped around and now I am a little behind, but I will catch up. I am off this Saturday from work as well as today so I can get a lot of the reading done and then I am off the weekend before the test so I can study my little sneakers off.

On top of that, a week before the test is Erica’s 20 week sonogram… although it will be 21 weeks I think. We are not going to find out the sex as we just want it to be healthy and it is what it is so knowing will not change anything. Erica is a bit disappointed because her parents were going to come down so she scheduled the appointment during their visit and then, last minute, they changed their plans. Normally it is not a big deal, but I know my wife feels disappointed because she feels her parents are not just putting her first and coming down for the appoint in spite of the fact that their plans changed a bit.

It all seems like a lot, but it really isn’t.

I WILL catch up on the reading BEFORE the test and have time to study my notes so I will do well on the test.

I KNOW my in-laws love my wife VERY, VERY much and will do all they can to be there for her when the strawberry comes.

I know this is going to be a tough year, but we will get through it and we will have a great life… because I will love being a nurse and I love my wife!

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